If Bebe Rexha wins an MTV Video Music Award Tuesday night, she may not be on hand to receive her prize.
The pop star — who’s nominated in the Best Collaboration category alongside David Guetta for their track “I’m Good (Blue)” — said on TikTok Monday that she has qualms about attending the awards show, which airs live on MTV at 8 p.m. ET.
In a selfie video, Rexha admitted that she’s feeling “anxious AF” and not like the “bad bitch” she usually feels like.
“I want to start off by saying that I am very grateful and blessed to be able to be invited to these award shows, to be able to do what I love,” the 34-year-old said.
But amid comments about her weight, Rexha isn’t sure whether she’ll hit the VMAs red carpet.
“I wanted just to talk about this because I meet a lot of people. And a lot of times, they’ll be like, ‘Oh, my God I love how you’re all about body positivity and confidence,’” she said. “And let me tell you: Right now, I’m not feeling so confident.”
She went on: “I am so anxious and stressed about going on the red carpet and, I guess, people talking about my weight, because I’m not really loving myself right now,” she went on. “I am not really feeling like the bad bitch that I usually am.”
Rexha told fans she has a “cute” outfit picked out for the awards show, but she’s still ambivalent about making an appearance.
“I do want to wear my dress and I do really want to go to celebrate my nomination and my friends’ nominations, but I do feel like anxiety gets the best of me,” she said.
In July, the “Meant to Be” singer shared a text message — seemingly from Keyan Safyari, her boyfriend at the time — that dissed her figure.
“Would you rather I lied to you?” the text read, in part. “You gained 35 pounds, obviously you gained weight and your face changes? Should I just pretend it didn’t happen and that it’s OK?”
Rexha confirmed her breakup from Safyari days later at a concert in London, according to People.
That text message added insult to literal injury — Rexha suffered a black eye in June after a New York City concertgoer threw a cell phone at her face mid-performance.
